My life from Darkness to Light
I am a Muslim male from an Arabic country and i am 15 years old for more than 14 years in my life i never felt how Islam is beautiful or how Salah (prayer) is beautiful or makes the person happy and close to his god -Allah-
I always found that it's a hard to pray and i never realized how beautiful it is and i actually was like a Muslim by name only
i used to pray most of the Salawat (prayers) at one time at the end of the day and i understand something very wrong i thought the if the person only said the Shahada he will go to heaven, but i was totally wrong and never understood Islam right. i actually had a fine life every thing i want i have it and only read Qur'an at Ramamdan or in the Qur'an lesson at school
and since i grew up and became a teenager i saw all people around me watching the porn stuff and masturbating but i didn't follow them as i heard that masturbation is Haram and i was like want to change my life and become a better person so i didn't follow them and didn't do as all youth now do
after about a year or two i started to feel like i want to see porn or sex to be honest i opened topics that includes sex wallpapers from warez sites and sometimes i lost myself and start to open tens of these topics to see girls and other times i searched on Google from naked pictures and this thing was like 4 or 5 times in the month and this with no masturbating or watch a sex movie i just was with these pictures, and every time i remember that what i am seeing is Haram and i will be punished as i forgot that Allah is seeing me all the time when i thought i was alone so i everey time feel so sad and ashamed from myself, till i reached a level i was like about to watch movie i just needed a push or anything, i was to close to that
till i was checking an ordinary site and its admin sent me a pm there and told me that he want me to help him to make advertisement for the forum it was a small forum not so big and i found that the admin s a Muslim too but a revert not born on Islam so i wanted to check that he isn't someone who is making fun of Islam and i kept asking him and be rude to him to see if he is going to be angry or be patient, so to be honest he didn't lose his temper not even for once
so i started to get close to him and to know what does he want from me and i actually made the advertisement for him and we became friends and started to know about each other
and then i found him about 40 years old and he have a very serious problem, he was addicted to porn stuff so i told him that i am about to start watch to put i guess Allah sent you to me to help me to avoid this sin and to get away from my thoughts
so i told him that he must stop like i did as i after i know him and became a friend to him i started to change myself after i read his reversion to Islam story which impressed me so much and made me realize how bad i am cause i for example born on Islam but can't find the religion in me and i can read Arabic cause i am an Arabic person but i forget the Qur'an and i don't pray the Salah (prayer) at its time while i have almost all the day free
and he the revert to Islam is trying hard to learn how to pray and how read Qur'an and learn some suras from the Qur'an and he left his job cause it was making him miss the Salah (prayer) at its time
so i felt so horrible in myself and so sad cause i forgot my religion and my god -Allah- so i decided to change myself and him and to do our best to avoid any porn thing
well we from that time like saw porn limited times and then we both stopped as we followed a very good way to stop this habit it was if any one of us saw a sexy picture or porn movie he will put 100 pounds at the mosque, it was really a very good way to do this as when we had this idea we didn't see any bad thing and we didn't lose ourselves in front of a picture or a video
and in that time i started to open the Holy Qur'an and to read daily and to full my heart with the glorious Qur'an which has everything in it
and then we agreed on praying another Salah (prayer) at the end of everyday to thank Allah about everything that happened to us at this day and we actually changed 180 degrees and started to be better Muslim and we loved Allah more than we loved ourselves as we used to do
and another thing that was really helping that if one of us did something wrong or was about to lose himself we used to tell each other so the other person take with the one who are about to lose himself to take his hand and start advising him and making him forget about this thought and make the shaytan (satan) who is trying to make the person bad again go away from and leave him we actually gave each other gifts with Islamic appz and some Qur'an suras so we became like one person
but a very strong person who can stand against his thoughts and say "NO I WON'T LOSE MYSELF AGAIN CAUSE I LOVE ALLAH AND HE SEES ME" we became better Muslims who are strong and can control himself not letting the shaytan (satan) control him and drag him to hell
we start helping other people by everything we can even he was sending the translated Qur'an to another countries when he knows that there is someone needs it to know about Qur'an and we actually were offering this person help and talking about Islam and telling him what is it and how beautiful it is and start teaching him Islam.
we actually thank Allah everyday cause he made us together to become stronger and to return to the straight pass and especially me as i was like 1 or 2 days and start to be addicted to porn and start watching porn movies
but Al Hamdo Lillah more than thousand times that Allah helped us at the last moment and made us together.
As for me i became a better Muslim and i -Al Hamdo Lillah- read Qur'an everyday and pray before i sleep and pray the five prayers at it's time and i feel so sad when i sleep without reading Qur'an or praying to Allah, and as for him he stopped his bad habit and became stronger and focusing more in his Deen (religion) and do charity things to help people
we actually not at the same age which is the most weird thing as he is up to 40 and i am 15 but we feel like we are 1 person and when we feel weak we remember Allah and we remember each others and how sad or upset would be the other man so we say "NO I LOVE ALLAH-SWT- AND HIS PROPHET MUHAMMED-SAS- AND MY FRIEND MORE THAN ANY EVIL THOUGHT OR ACT"
we became best friends and more than brothers to each other and we can't spend a day without seeing each other by chatting as we are in different continents which is hard for us both as we like dieing to see each other face to face and to hug each other to hug the person who helped you to be strong to be a Muslim a real one not a Muslim by name
we actually love each other and that's leads us to make Duaa (asking from Allah) for the other before ourselves
i wanted to put my story so other people who are like me can find someone who helps them not take them to the hell,
to start be self controlled not controlled by shaytan (satan), to Love Allah and his beloved prophet Muhammad more than himself, to remember that he isn't alone at anytime even if he is in a cave in an island in the middle of the ocean, and to feel what is Islam and how beautiful it is when it full your heart and make you feel happy all the time
And that was my story
i just want to say
Glory be to Allah and praise be to Him to the number of His creation and to the extent of His pleasure and to the extent of the weight of His Throne and to the extent of ink used in recording words for His Praise.
May Allah grant us all with his Heaven and give us the chance to see the great prophets and to see his (Allah's) face.
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